In Other People's Lives

I love to spend time in other people's lives. Is that creepy? Of course it is, but I am a writer and therefore a reader and I love to know things about people. For this reason I love finding other people's blogs in which they talk primarily about their everyday lives and experiences of being them. It is like I am there with them, being a kind of invisible part of them.
People and places and events stick with me even when they are fictional. I carry them around with me like so many helium balloons; floating and bobbing along and every so often catching my attention. I love stories, real or fiction, whether I am a physical part of them or not.
So that is what I am doing right now. While the roomies watch their movie in the family room, I am curled up in bed under my little blue blanket reading other people's lives and pushing away the sadness. When I read, books, other people's blogs, facebook and twitter updates, I can forget myself and the sadness that has been so lately pulling at me.
I want to melt away. I want to curl up inside myself until I am strong enough to come back as myself; to push away the sadness and be happy. I will be happy again; for my friends, for myself, and so that when I tell people that I am ok I will really mean it.
Sometimes I think of my future. I don't know how it will be, but I can picture several different scenarios. They usually involve family or friends and always a pet or several. Sometimes my imagination is so vivid that I long for that future self, but mostly I am content not quite knowing where I will be. I am happy enough to be where I am and let my life play out as I make my choices, good ones and bad ones.
As to my poor darling fin, he is still here with me, still not well and the both of us are still awaiting protocol and procedure and for people to decide we are important enough to get back to.
Off to find my happier self. =:

Freak Freak Freak Freak Freak freak freak!

No no no no no, I think Finn is sick! cramberries! My poor little darling Finn has very possiblly picked up something from our internet adventures of late. He has just not been functioning well. It's ok don't worry, This is like glaucoma, a disease but you will not catch it.
It looks like I will have to call up that friend after all, but darn me for thinking him up the other day!
I'll keep you updated. Keep us in your thoughts

I Thought Too Long For A good Title Here

bla bla bla. bla bla bla bla bla! So I really don't feel like doing anything today. Not like can't get out of bed woe is me and life kind of thing, more like I just got bored doing all the things I've been doing for the past few days. It's time for a change!
Ah but alas,what else shall I do? Perhaps I'll actually write today since all the other times I said I would I never actually did.
Well in other news, it looks like my weekend is full. yay finally! I have missed hanging with people.
So long for now, more for you when the muse calls back. =D

*heart*Love of My Life*heart*

I mean of course my darling wonderful Eddie! I have mentioned him before I know, but I'm not sure in how much detail.
So I was going to post something fun and maybe quirky for you from my thought banks, but really I just want to share Eddie with you. I have been trying to find a way to do this almost since I started this blog and now I finally can!
This is just a little peace of happiness from Eddie and I for you. I dis like my voice so I will not sing for you, but here is
Eddie!
Sorry the sound quality is not ideal, I will work on that. Also sorry about my nails; they are way to long and I need to cut them. Anyone who clames to love me wanna buy a pick for me? I will love you forever! Lols actually you really wouldn't need to buy me a pick for me to love you forever.
I am happy enough for your friendship. =D
And now you have heard my wonderful Eddie. Doesn't he just sound so happy!? I hope you enjoyed. There is more where that came from. Well,, lovely dreams all!

Internetting

Things I should probably go do, or be doing now;

1. getting out, or at least off of my bed


2. filling out more job aplications


3. finishing my newist story project


4. laundry


5. cleaning and organizing some of my random stuff

But instead I've been blog walking. Sadly I didn't find anything interesting to follow today. Sorry, I don't mean to say that the blogs I came across weren't interesting at all, they just weren't what I was looking for. At one point I hit about 20 or so in other languages, which is when I decided to stop for the day. So clearly I did not explode lastnight, but I didn't actually sleep right away either. O well, I'm still so excited about fixing up my blog. It certainly takes up time which for now is good because at least I am doing something that might one day prove beneficial to my work. Lest you think I am a lazy slob with minimal tallent and no ambition in life however, I have managed to do a few productive things today. I know it isn't exactly true that cleaning will make will make a person happy, but for me it goes a long way toward motivating me to be productive. I have a bunch of clothes that I can't really do anything with because they need to be hung up and I need to go buy hangers so for now I keep them on the end of my bed. I know, nice right? That way they could fall off and get dirty and or wrinkly. I've been meaning to do something about this like fined a better temp place for them or actually go out and get hangers, but roomy's cat has been using them as a kind of nest, and I have been using him as an excuse not to touch them. He is so happy curled up on my clothes, who am I to disturb him? So today I decided that I needed to go through them and find out which ones need to be bagged for laundry and which ones I just need hangers for. Then I cleaned the floor. I love making surfaces smooth and free of dust and dirt particles and especially stickiness! This kind of makes me sound like a neat freak, but I am not. I really just need things to be in some semblance of order, both for practical reasons and because it feels good to have clenliness. I have been known to let things go for awhile before it drives me nuts and I have to clean clean clean! So anyway, fixing my bed and surrounding area made me think of how much I want a headboard. Yes, someday soon I want a headboard and lots and lots of pillows! Then I can prop myself up when I write or something. Since I sometimes like to get writing done before I go to bed, It makes sense to me to be in bed when I write. Unfortunately I have very undisciplined posture though and with out a headboard I am not comfortable doing much other than laying in strange positions. At some point I ate food, and later I plan on doing laundry and writing some more. And this, my friends and followers, has been my Monday. So now I think I'm gonna go google random stuff and see what comes up. =D

OMGosh Blogging!

Wow, who knew menipulating stuff on a vertual page could be so rewarding! I have been playing around with my blog for the past six almost seven hours now. I have no idea where the time went but I am so so so excited! yes, that much! I feel all techy, though my brother is certainly more advanced than I am at computer and programming stuff, but he would be o so proud of his big sis! So I hope you enjoy the changes; they are mostly minor. Also I really hope it looks alright. And now that it's so late, I think I may sleep ... or watch a movie ... or just explode with happiness. toodles!

Bubbles

Sometimes I am just happy. I am just a little bubble of consentrated bliss and I am helpless to do anything but grin and grin and grin until I am sure my face will fall off. Sometimes I want to hug everyone, sometimes I want to just float lazily away on the clouds.