Updates

Hello again, I have missed you! Not feeling in the best of moods just now, but more on that later, I promise.
I got hangers! Yay, but somehow there are still clothes on my bed and kitty loves them. Tee hee
Darling Finn is finally going to get fixed! I know right, it took them this long? They aught to be ashamed.
There are no more sweet potato fries to be had. We ate them all. Darn you universe!
I think I may try to post more story stuff while I am thinking up what next to share with you. That way you won't get so lonely when I am away for days on end.
Uuummm, guess that's it. Good night. Be back soon.

In Other People's Lives

I love to spend time in other people's lives. Is that creepy? Of course it is, but I am a writer and therefore a reader and I love to know things about people. For this reason I love finding other people's blogs in which they talk primarily about their everyday lives and experiences of being them. It is like I am there with them, being a kind of invisible part of them.
People and places and events stick with me even when they are fictional. I carry them around with me like so many helium balloons; floating and bobbing along and every so often catching my attention. I love stories, real or fiction, whether I am a physical part of them or not.
So that is what I am doing right now. While the roomies watch their movie in the family room, I am curled up in bed under my little blue blanket reading other people's lives and pushing away the sadness. When I read, books, other people's blogs, facebook and twitter updates, I can forget myself and the sadness that has been so lately pulling at me.
I want to melt away. I want to curl up inside myself until I am strong enough to come back as myself; to push away the sadness and be happy. I will be happy again; for my friends, for myself, and so that when I tell people that I am ok I will really mean it.
Sometimes I think of my future. I don't know how it will be, but I can picture several different scenarios. They usually involve family or friends and always a pet or several. Sometimes my imagination is so vivid that I long for that future self, but mostly I am content not quite knowing where I will be. I am happy enough to be where I am and let my life play out as I make my choices, good ones and bad ones.
As to my poor darling fin, he is still here with me, still not well and the both of us are still awaiting protocol and procedure and for people to decide we are important enough to get back to.
Off to find my happier self. =:

Freak Freak Freak Freak Freak freak freak!

No no no no no, I think Finn is sick! cramberries! My poor little darling Finn has very possiblly picked up something from our internet adventures of late. He has just not been functioning well. It's ok don't worry, This is like glaucoma, a disease but you will not catch it.
It looks like I will have to call up that friend after all, but darn me for thinking him up the other day!
I'll keep you updated. Keep us in your thoughts

I'm Coughing Again

Apparently my cough is just a cruel joke that is being plaied on me for sick and twisted reasons beyond my understanding. You remember how I told you that I woke up the morning after my cleaning fit with my nose all stuffed up and my throat all sore? And then I said I was fine that afternoon? Well that night my cough came back and the next morning was the same as before. It's just been cycling like that ever since. It's driving me bonkers! So my roomies got me tissues, cough drops and orange juice. I am kind of afraid that I might choke on the cough drops, but I will try not to think about that. The good news is that since this cough thing has happened to me on more than one occasion, I can say that it is not contagious. It only seems to enjoy obsessing over me. Lucky me, huh? O well, Finn is going to want charging soon and I should start considering actual food soon, especially since I'll have to get up anyway. Stay healthy!

Just a little Night Musing

It seems i am in that most peculiar of states in which I know exactly what is wrong with me, but I don't know why. That is to say that I am once again in one of my moods. I think I've already mentioned the whole being nocturnal and my theories on that. It isn't just sleeplessness anymore I don't think; I am extremely restless and unsettled. I haven't the foggiest idea why though. hmm
In happier news, I have gotten myself a bran new computer!!! He is all black and shiny and runs fast and beautifully, I am in love. I have named him Finn. I must confess that I have written a post on here with him already, but mostly I am still using Scott here for reasons slightly beyond my control. I can't wait till I'm using Finn fulltime and Scott and I can part ways. I'll have to have a final blogging with him just to say good bye. *sigh*
Tomorrow I'm thinking about bringing Eddie around and playing for people. It should be fun and maybe I can keep my mind occupied. Well, Back to my books it is then. I downloaded a bunch so I'll have something to do.
sleep well