But I Probably Should Get Over It

So I am excited and nervous andterrified and cold all at the same time! Whoa, yeah. I am excited because Roomy made banana bread and I have not had this in a very lonnnnnnnnggg time. Not that people don't often make banana bread; in fact, people make it all the time but I can never have any because they always see the need to put nuts in it. I am allergic to nuts, but only the real kind; treenuts they're called. If you don't understand that, what I mean is that peanuts are actually not nuts. They're Legumes and more related to beans. That's what they tell me anyway. But either way I am not allergic to them and that makes me happy because peanut allergies kind of scare me. I'm not really sure yet why I am nervous; maybe I'm putting the wrong name to it. Terrified. I am terrified because I do not like to be alone with so much quiet. Sometimes I will just sit on my bed trying to listen as hard as I can for any unusual sounds so that I can sprint out the window or something. I'm not really sure where I'd go though--that is if I didn't break my leg first. This is why I need a big tough dog to be a better pare of eyes and ears and alert me to any possible danger, in addition to my padlocks and awesome alarm sistem when I live on my own. I especially hate having to run water because I can't hear over it so I tend to try to run it as low as I possibly can. I wish I had friends I could call or ask to stay over when this happens, but I'm always afraid people are busy and I don't want to bother them because I am a wimp and can't stay in my own house alone for long periods of time. I think probably I'd get a shepherd, or maybe a mastiff; something big so I can hide behind him and have him attack strangers. The big cat was just sitting on my bed with me--he's the male. He seems to be very sensitive to emotions and probably can tell that I am a bit freaked out. But I've got the whole weekend to myself and I intend to make the best of it! I'll probably get more freaked out though as the night grows old. No matter how many times this happens I still can't quite get over the feeling, and putting on loud happy music doesn't really help either because again, I can't hear. Well, it's winter here so I'd say it's fairly obvious why I'm cold. Toodles! wish me safety.

Because I Smile When I Am Happy

No, I am not up super early, in fact I haven't slept yet. I wanted to finish up some things so I could sleep freely. It took longer than I expected and I wasn't going to blog any, but my book isn't done transfering so here I am. =D
Tonight and this morning I am thinking happy thoughts and lovely things so here are some lovely thoughts for you. I find that there is something truly awesome about holding another living being. It's one thing to see them walk, talk, moo, hiss, pur ect. but when you touch another living being, even as small as my tiny leopard gecko Joei, you can feel their life.
I love to hold cats or dogs or lizards and feel their tiny heart beats and the rhythm of their breathing; it's comforting somehow. And let's don't forget hugs.
Here, only real hugs count. While side hugs may be appropriate in some circumstances, they are not real hugs and do not make a connection. Perhaps that is part of why I am such a cuddlebug; I am comforted by that feeling of life.
So cheers to life and living! ... and the hugs ;)

Small Dreams And Fantom Things

I have of late, been wanting to adopt a little orange and white kitten and name him Monstro. I don't know why this is, but every once in awhile I like to look up dog breeds on the AKC website and imagine what I would name a particular kind. I want each and every one of them, but realize that I could not possiblly take care of that many dogs responsibly. So instead of coming home with me, in the fur if you will, they float around in my mind and sometimes they go into my stories. Or sometimes they become stuffed animals. It is very possible that little Monstro will end up in some story somewhere. Hmm, I wonder what's in store for our fearless little kitten. Well, perhaps you should stay tune for what happens.
O yes and I've finally gotten around to getting a picture up.That's Eddie and I. I wish I had a better case for him. Happy dreaming.

Excitement To Come

Not much when on today at work. I'm still researching and gathering information, although I'm supposed to figure out what for. I feel like i am stalling until I can figure that out, but I'm not sure how long I can do this for with out a somewhat clear direction. I wish I were as smart as people keep thinking I am.
Yesterday a friend of mine brought her puppies in just as i was leaving. I love animals.The doberman was teething though and tried to eat me. She didn't bite very hard; it didn't feel like an I want to hurt you bite. The yorky was much calmer, but i think she's older. Well, hopefully I can figure out what i'm doing soon, and I sincerely hope we get real summer soon.

Something I find Fascinating

I don't remember when I actually first learned about them, but guide dogs for the blind have always interested me. Recently I found myself on one of the guide dog school's websites reading up on those wonderful animals. I know that labs, goldens and shepherds can all be guide dogs, but I recently heard that some places train boxers. Now isn't that interesting. Also, a friend of mine who's raised guide dog pups before said she once had a husky.I honestly thought huskies were sled dogs. I had a husky once and she was the last thing I would have picked to guide the blind.She was a good dog and very friendly, but some combination of hyper and an inate desire to pull sleds--even human ones--would have made me nervous about it. Of course, this may just have been my dog. A speaker at a convention I once attended said something about huskies that I very much agree with. huskies ... are psycho. It's true, they really are, but in the most loveable way.
I've also heard of pigs and horses of all things being guide animals. horses are supposed to live longer and pigs are supposed to be pretty smart. I really haven't spent enough time with pigs to gage their intelligence and I feel like horses would have to be trained specially not to shy from traffic, but hey if they work, they work. I have never met a guide horse or pig, but I've met several dogs and they're very good. Once when i was leaving the hospital after surgery a big lab golden mix tried to jump into my wheelchair with me. I don't think they're supposed to do that, but i think his harness was off so he was not in working mode. I think he was trying to comfort me and was just a friendly dog in general. I didn't mind at all.
One other kind of service animal I'm particularly interested in is a seizure dog. I've never met one my self, but I watched a program on them once and fell in love. I truly think my dog--this would be my cocker--should have been a seizure dog. I find the way they're able to be so intuned with their humans so as to detect signs of a seizure is the neatest thing. Dogs who are trained to use the phone in case their human is in trouble are pretty awesome too. it's truly amazing how much humans have been able to work with animals to serve different kinds of useful purposes.

Sun Patch

Today I found a patch of sun while I was walking across the living room floor. Naturally I curled up and lay in it; soking up my vitamin D. It made me think of cats and dogs and how it must feel to have the sun warm their fur. My sun patch moved, more's the pitty, but I'm still warm from it. No wonder cats spend so much of their time lying in the sun. I think i want to write something on that subject. Hmm, I wonder should I make a cat now or something else? I've sewn cats before, but I've always wanted to make one with stripes or spots. Guess it depends on what fur I have in my bin right now. I'll try and put the pic here ifI end up making it.